Cheers to 30 Years!

Turning 30 is the pits.  Well, at least 2 days into it thats how I can best sum it up.  Don't get me wrong...I am incredibly blessed and I have accomplished and overcome a lot.  I have a loving, supportive, God-fearing, sexy husband.  I have two beautiful, healthy children.  I recently earned my college degree.  And I am about to be considered a real ballerina (pending I don't have a severe panic attack before entering the stage in my tutu).  But it is amazing the things that cross your mind when you are entering a new stage in life.  Have I done enough?  Am I loved and do I love enough?  Where do I go from here?  And why am I still dealing with the same insecurities I dealt with in my twenties for crying out loud!?  30 is an odd phase to say the least.  Its an in-between stage of selfishly wanting what I want and submitting to what the Lord wants and being mature enough to know the difference between the two.  I have decided to start blogging again because I believe the Lord is going to do something big with this year and I want to document it.  My sister-in-law best compared this in-between and somewhat difficult phase in life to childbirth.  Yuck.  Like I want to re-live that again.  But she is right.  Any of you mommies remember the transitional part of labor?  I do.  Its the part that happens right after you start thinking, "this can't get any worse"...and then it does.  Its the point in which (if you do it w/out the blessed buzz of meds) you basically give up and decide its best to keep baking that baby until it can walk itself out and leave for college.  But its also the point right before something magical happens.  Life and love are offically born.  Your heart immediately doubles in size and every confusing and painful thing prior to that moment suddenly makes sense.  I hope 30 brings that moment again.  No, I'm not pregnant.  Lol.  But I want this spiritual labor to bring God's best for me.  And even though 30 has started out confusing and challenging I trust it won't be for nothing.  30 will bring growth and joy and freedom.  Cheers to 30 years!